"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Anonymous

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Getting Back Into the Groove



My kids went back to school on Monday and I went back to a regular workout schedule.  

It's not as easy as it looks.  

Monday was fine.  I had decided to do a Leslie Sansone Walk at Home DVD.  It was the kids' first day, all things new, etc. etc., so no problem exercising.  

Then Tuesday I had a heck of a time getting motivated to workout.  I had decided to do a Jillian Michael's interval workout for "strength" on Tuesday, but I just didn't want to get dressed and get it done. 

As I sat being lazy after my morning devotions I came across a video on my phone my daughter took of me when I was at my lowest weight.  I remember feeling good about myself; not good only because I was wearing a smaller size, but also because it meant I was exercising regularly and being careful how much I ate and what I ate.  

That motivated me to get up and get the exercise done.  I reminded myself the only way to get there again was to get up and take it one day at a time. 

I also reminded myself putting some weight back on doesn't mean it's over.  

I know I don't want to go back to 232 pounds and, like one poster said recently, the good thing about losing weight and gaining it back is you know you've done it once so that means you can do it again.  

Yep.  So, I got dressed and got it done.  Then I took a picture and made the above photo for my Instagram account.  It's a good reminder.  

Oh, and I also got my 3-mile walking workout done today.  Three days in a row... I'm on a roll!  :)

Friday, August 21, 2015

Weigh-In: The Longer You Stay Away

Hello!  Life is beginning to settle around these parts.  We are getting used to our new hometown here in Arlington, Texas and little by little I'm getting back into a normal daily groove again. 

I know some of you understand when you've been out of the weigh-loss/caring-about-your-weight groove it's hard to get back into it.  I'm feeling it more and more this time.  

I vacillate between not caring and refusing to buy a bigger size clothing, even if everything I wear now is almost indecent it's so tight.  (for my tastes anyway -- I could fit right in with some ladies I've seen around town.  HA!)

In fact, this fighting to get back in the groove is why the following statement really caught my attention on the radio the other day. 

The DJ was talking about going to a dental appointment and made a comment along the lines of, "The longer you stay away, the longer you'll have to stay at your next visit."

Isn't that the truth?!

As a dentist's wife I've heard many stories about bad dental hygiene and the hours and costs required to correct things that could've been avoided with simple daily dental practices.

As a women who has been overweight in the past, and put on some weight recently, I could relate as well.  The longer I deny what is going on with my weight the harder it is to get back into the groove. 

And the more weight I put on the longer I'll have to spend trying to get it back off again.  

So, that is why on August first I weighed myself.  I faced the gain that put me at 189.0 pounds.  It was hard, but the longer I let things go the harder it's going to be to get it back off. 

I'm not fully back in the groove, but I am making small changes to get back there and today it showed when I weighed in at 187.0 pounds.  It's only two pounds down, but I'll take it.

Honestly, I don't look forward to having to lose weight again, but I know it will be worth it.  And I don't want to stay away any longer and drawing out the uncomfortableness of tight clothes any longer than necessary.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Linking to: Squeeze Into Those Skinny Jeans

I came across a podcast yesterday titled "Squeeze Into Those Skinny Jeans".  Since recently I'm squeezing myself into all my clothes I was instantly intrigued.  It's rather short, just under 30 minutes, and gets right to the point of dealing with weight struggles and not giving up.  

The author and I are in a similar boat and I loved what she had to say on the topic.  You can find her podcast through iTunes, Stitcher or by clicking on the title below.  

Squeeze Into Those Skinny Jeans by Chrystal Evans Hurst

Photo Credit:  Blog - Sharing the Journey

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Moving and Settling

Well, look at that!  It's been almost exactly a month since I last posted, and boy what a month it has been.

Our family has made a major move this summer and this past month has been the month of visiting family, friends, moving and unpacking.  It's been fun and busy and I'm to finally start feeling some semblance of normalcy in our lives again.  

We've been in our house just over two weeks and I'm putting the last touches of stuff up and away -- namely beginning to hang wall decor.  I like to make a new place "home" as soon as possible, it helps me relax.  I think it helps my family as well, but who knows.  

All I know is settling also helps me feel more normal and like I have more time for getting my eating and exercise back where it needs to be.  My goal for this month has been to eat to the point of satisfied and curb the extra snacking. 

When I'm traveling I don't really worry about my food choices and I often find myself overeating in the "I'm on vacation!" mentality.  I don't really care about not sticking to a diet when I'm traveling, but the overeating doesn't usually happen like it did this time.  (More on that later, because I made myself weigh on the first of the month...)  I'm not a good healthy example that way I guess, but oh well.  

I had planned on getting my exercise done regularly while at my grandparents and visiting my friend (who is also getting back into running) but schedules were hard to navigate.  Plus, I enjoyed getting my full night's of sleep versus waking early to get some exercise done just so I'd feel "good" being able to tell people I exercised while traveling.  

Subsequently, one good thing about not exercising is the plantar fasciitis I've been dealing with since my half marathon in May is finally feeling better.  I don't think I mentioned it here, but it was to the point where a good 45-minute walk would make my foot ache terribly.  It has ached from the moment I stepped on it in the morning and then worsen by bedtime.

So, maybe all that non-exercise was a good thing.  I didn't have access to swimming or a bike, so anything heavy on my feet would've bothered it.  Not that no exercise is ever a good thing, but this time I reaped a good benefit from it in one way, so I'm embracing that.  even if I do feel like a fat slug right now

So ... we've moved and we are settling and I'm still around.  Still fighting the fight and hopefully ready to be back blogging regularly and sharing how my new ending includes getting back on track after a move halfway across the country. 

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Sleep, Such a Wonderful Thing!

One of the things I'm enjoying the most about being on vacation, and visiting my grandparents, is getting full nights of sleep.  

Ahh.... We can stay up until 10:00 or 11:00pm and I don't have to get up until whenever I want.  I set my alarm for 7:00 and usually get up by 7:30.  If I'm a little extra tired I can even sleep until 8:00.  

Glorious! 

A full 8-9 hours of sleep a night means I'm not dragging during the daytime.  When we are up at 6:00am during the school year I hit a slump every afternoon where I am so, so tired -- unless I get to bed at like 9:00/9:30pm.  Since that rarely happens I hit the slump.

Maybe seeing how good it feels to actually power through the day without needing a nap will encourage me to get to bed earlier during the school year. 

Okay...probably not.  So, I will enjoy my full nights of sleep during summer break right now.  :) 

Monday, July 6, 2015

Where I Complain About My Weight, But I Don't Quit

Now that you have an idea where I'm at with my life (see previous post) and weight and exercise...I am going to get something off my chest. 

It is frustrating to have to be so careful with my food and exercise to stay at a healthy weight.  However, for me, what's even more frustrating is the fact that I have to make such a conscious effort to eat better or eat smaller portions.  I dislike very much that my natural inclination is to eat junk or too much food just because, and of course I get frustrated that it doesn't take much extra food or lack of movement for the weight to jump right back on.  

I know this is totally normal and it's why the majority of people who lose weight gain it all back. 

Because it's a fight.  It's a daily choice to keep making decisions that are better for you. 

Isn't it crazy that I have no problem making better choices in other areas, but this area is one of those that is rough.  It's the proverbial thorn in my side.  I guess it's better than fighting a drug addiction, so I am grateful for that, but it's still hard and frustrating and often doesn't feel fair.

Today as I was blogging I was thinking, "You dope.  If you could just get your head completely in the game, then you would be a winner at this and you'd no longer struggle with your weight."  

But I don't think that's true.  Or at least I'd like to think it's not, because then it gives me a reason to still feel like it's a fight to be that healthier, never-struggles-with-"good"-food-choices lady I dream of being. 

Sigh.  

I feel a little better.  
Maybe I'll print this and tuck it in my mirror to look at daily.  As a reminder that I need to not give up and fall into "vacation mode", because for me that leads to weight gain and feelings of upset tummy, not to mention the emotional upset of feeling like a big fat failure.  (I already have had to tell myself to ignore the memories of how thin I was two years ago when I came to visit my grandparents...)

Or maybe I can look at this and be reminded that it's because I refuse to give up that I m not completely starting over.  I'm in a slump that I will not allow to go any further than it already has.  I know this to be true, because I keep making sure I don't go up any further and haven't in six months. 

I know when I am settled again I can and will get back to even better eating.  Until then, I will press on fighting the fight so that I don't have more than 20 pounds to deal with later on. 

Because coming on here and complaining, and thinking, and venting reminds me that I am not back up at 230 pounds and I have no intention of getting there again.  I won't quit.  

I may cry and complain and whine, but really this is a fight I can win -- am winning if I dare be so optimistic -- so I will keep on with one of my original mottos/choices.
Thanks for listening.  It's not over, because I am NEVER going back to that overweight woman I was...not if I can help it, and so far, thankfully, I can.

Packing, Moving and Traveling

It's that time of our [military] life again.  Moving! 

We have cleaned, sorted and gotten things ready to be packed.  Watched as an awesome group of movers came and packed and loaded our entire home up in three days.  Lived on air mattresses and borrowed plastic table and chairs for a week until it was time to turn in house keys.  And, finally, loaded up the cars and I made my way with our children up to my grandparents to visit with them a few weeks before making our [hopefully last] move to a new state when my husband goes on his official "terminal leave".  

Our landlord was unable to extend our lease an extra month, so we decided to combine a visit to the great-grandparents with a need of a place to stay until my husband gets settled in his new job.  

It's been a whirlwind of crazy and my 21-Day Fix ended right as this craziness got it's craziest.  In fact, I lasted strictly only 14 days and then only partially followed the last week.  I felt the best I've felt in a long time while doing the 21-Day Fix, but I'm here to be honest that I've probably gained what I lost during it. 

Okay, no "probably".  My scale was packed up a couple weeks ago, but my Grandma's scale shows that I have indeed gained it back.  I haven't eaten like I was those two and a half weeks, so I'm not surprised, but I hate having to say that out loud.

However, I made a point to step on her scale (when I really didn't want to) and so I know the reality of where I'm at.  I decided before starting this move that I would make an effort to exercise during our move, even if it was only walks.  

My grandparents have a treadmill in the living room and a small t.v. in the guest bedroom with a DVD player in it.  We got here last Wednesday and I have done two DVD interval workouts so far.  My husband came up for the holiday weekend, so I gave myself some slack while he was here.  

So, I am here.  I am alive.  We had a great 4th of July and are enjoying very quiet peaceful days waaaay out in the country.  I'm not in control of what is being cooked here, but I am choosing to be in control of how much of it I eat and whether or not I get any intentional exercise done. 

Thanks for stopping by!